The Sun is Up, The Sky is Blue

Today was election day and I voted for the new president of our country. I voted for him for many reasons (some of which include education, the economy, the war, health care, taxes, etc). What I didn't think about when I was voting for him was that he is black. I find it amazing that people would still consider that a factor in picking the better person to lead our country. That said, I think it's amazing that I saw our first black president elected in my lifetime. Who knew it would happen? Something else that shocked me about this election was how angry McCain supporters got. When McCain was making his speech, people booed at Obama's name. I was on facebook when it was announced that Obama won, and the flow of pissy statuses started. Most of them were from people I went to college with in South Carolina, but not all of them. People are getting so angry and scared for our country...are you kidding me? We have somehow survived through the last eight years. Our country is down-spiraling, the economy sucks, people can't find jobs, banks are borrowing money, the stock market keeps falling, we are STILL fighting in the middle east, and we are still here. I don't see how anything can get worse.

I know that people have the right to their opinion, and the fact that we get to vote for our leader is exceptional in itself, but I just don't understand the anger. Barack Obama is smart. He doesn't come from a long line of money and legacy like most presidents do. He is different than anyone we have ever elected. I personally hope he can make an impact as great as FDR and JFK. I believe that the country will change, and I believe it will be for the better. I think all anyone can do, whether they voted for Obama or McCain, is hope that things will get better.

This is only the second time I have voted, but it was the first time I was excited to vote and make my voice heard. I feel like this was a historical election not only because he is our first black president, but it is a crucial time for our country. It feels weird to be part of history. To be present and vote for an election that will be in history books for years to come. On Sunday I went to UC to see Obama at his rally. We went down three hours early. It took us 45 minutes to find the end of the line, and we waited in line for 2-3 hours to get in to the stadium. We couldn't really see or understand his speech, but we were there. It was incredible to see how many different people were there waiting in line, sitting in the bleachers. They were black, white, young, old, gay, straight, everyone was there. It was heart-warming and hopeful to see so many different people come together for the same cause.

I am proud that I voted for Obama. I am excited to see what he does with our country. I am sick of people being so malicious about the election. Vote for who you wish, that's your right, but it's also important to support the majority decision.

Today was a great, historical day.

My cat is sitting next to me but she's not really doing anything. She's extremely weird, but so cute.

I'm a bad person because I made an associate cry at work last night. This is what the associate told me. I don't think i'm a bad person because this bitch was yelling at me and being insubordinate. If you want to yell at me and not do what I told you to do (like three times) then you can cry.

Work had been frustrating for me lately for reasons I don't feel safe putting on the internet. It's nothing big, I've just gotten to a really frustrating part in my development/role as an Area Manager. I broke down and cried out of frustration to two of my bosses. I don't like being the person who cries to their boss but I seriously couldn't help it, it just came out. I'm going to blame it on pms. With the exception of being frustrated work is good. My stores are pretty good, and I enjoy my job still.

I love when I realize how much I love my friends and what they mean to me. I'm so glad I can be my complete self around them and they don't judge me or care.

I hate wasting my time on people who are worth it (my time).

I'm going back to watching models because they are what? FIERCE.

It really blows that my weatherbug says it's 5 degrees outside. That's like freezing to your bones cold. I'm ready for Spring in many aspects-the weather, my job, having money, etc.

Speaking of having money it's not fun to be broke. It's fun to be on my own...but not when all my money goes to paying my bills. Karrie, Brittany, James and I created a "Things to do when we have money" list. That way we have something to look forward to and we remember all the things we wanted to do when we didn't have money.

As much as I hate working at Bed, Bath and Beyond i'm going to try to stay at least 2 weeks after I start at KI so I have a nice transition. Plus, I don't know how many hours I'll have at KI so I might need to make up for some of them. I can't imagine adding another month to my life at BBB, but I need money more than sanity I guess.

I'm really sick of working with people I don't like/people that treat me like crap. I'm not the kind of person who feels the need to be liked by everybody, but I still don't want to be treated like i'm stupid. It happens with one cashier in particular and it seems like I work with her a lot. She likes to send customers to my register when she isn't busy. Besides the fact that it pisses me off, she's making a customer go to another register when she is standing at hers. You have to wonder what the customer thinks. I want to talk to our manager about her but I don't really know what i'd tell him. She's really rude, and she treats me a lot worse than another associates, but I don't know if he'd really do anything about it. I like to think that he would. I know it's a business, but you need to have happy associates or you'll end up with none. I've been there for about 2 months now and i've seen two people walk out, two people quit, and I can't even tell you how many call-ins. People call in all the time like it has no effect on the store. It sets such a horrible example to new people. And when I called in because I really was sick, I got shit for it. They don't have any kind of system set up for people calling in. Nothing negative happens to you that could effect your job. You still get hours, people still treat you like they did before, etc. There are so many flaws that it kills me. We didn't sign off on any cash handling so I could totally fuck up my register and what could they do? Nothing. It's so irritating going from begin upper level management to an associate again. Not to mention boring. When I was an associate at Kings Island I was allowed to walk around my store, talk to guests, clean up, stock, everything. Here I have to stay at my register (or stand in front of it) until someone yells at me for not straightening. Whatever man.

I'm very much looking forward to going back to KI. At least there i'm respected, trusted, and I like it.

Brittany if you are reading this: Pocahontas.

Even though winter always sucks, it's nice to have time to spend with people even if I don't have any money. Like spending 2 hours playing a Grey's Anatomy board game. Or playing Wii.

I like to re-read journal entries that i've written to see how much things have changed or haven't at all. And of course, the things I expect to have changed have and the things I don't haven't. It's disheartening to discover you're not really learning from your mistakes or growing in certain aspects of life, but I guess that'll happen.

I have decided I could never work a regular retail job because it's monotonous and dull.

I'm very thankful for my friends. As John Mayer says, they defend the silver lining.

It's like 14 degrees outside and that's incredibly shoe.

I really want to go back to KI or at least know when i'm going back. It will be so nice to go back to a job that I know, that i'm good at, and where I get hours. I'll also get to see people I haven't seen much over the winter.

Recently I have begun to feel less like a kid and more like an adult. I'm sure it has to do with living on my own and paying bills. But there are other factors.

For instance, Christmas presents. The presents that I am thinking about buying people seem like adult presents. Like buying people stuff for their house. I mean, I have friends that have houses and have for awhile but it's like sinking in I guess.

Another factor: people getting married. Tons of people I knew at college are married or are getting married. I for one would not want to be married right now. I'm enjoying being a twentysomething and living in an apartment and doing whatever I want when I want. It's just strange.

I don't know. I think i'll always be young at heart but it's hard to grasp the whole growing up thing.

I have played so much guitar hero lately...holy crap. I'm getting pretty good though, I can now play on hard.

Went to Jeremy's yesterday and we made fudge. It was very odd making fudge that wasn't in a big kettle with already prepared mix. I think I prefer the candy shop way of making it. Although, I had a good time. I still feel like i'm just waiting for something though.

I don't really like winter. I love fall with the leaves changing color, the cooler air, the whole harvest feeling, Halloween, etc. But winter just isn't my favorite. I have to get a job that I kinda like just so I can pay bills, at least until I actually get a teaching job. While i'm working at this other job I think about Kings Island and how much I want to go back and how I can do everything there without having to ask anyone questions. It really sucks having to learn a whole new job. Plus at KI I get to see my best friends everyday. And in the winter I don't always get to see people I want to hang out with, I always plan to go ice skating and do fun winter activities, but plans seem to fall through a lot. And it's cold!

I haven't seen James in almost 2 weeks...that really stinks. He's a friend that i'm so used to seeing qutie often that when I don't it hits me hard. Hopefully I will see him soon.

Things I have done since I last posted (which was like, forever ago):

Moved into an apartment with my bestest friend and HSLP: Karrie.

Got promoted at KI - I am now an area manager and I wear my blue animal suit and tie with pride. I had Girl Space and Vending this past season. Woo!

Got a job at Pier One.

Quit Pier One (they sucked).

Got a job at Bed Bath & Beyond. Decidedly like this one.

Got a new car (in like, March). It's a 2007 Cobalt. It's shiny and red. It's name is Princess Speed Vixen.

Lost one of my best friends to the excitingness that is New York City. :(

And many other normal things that I do...such as work, hang out, eat, sleep, etc. I've discovered that a lot of things change and some things just never will. It's kind of depressing when you think something will change and it never does. Or the view you of it is different than the view someone else has. Perhaps I am naive in my thought processes but I read a lot of books and watch a lot of movies.

My circle of friends has changed some. Some people have left, others have joined. The core is still there and better than ever. It's also to weird to think that someone you don't even talk to anymore used to be one of your closest friends. You wonder how you ever hung out with them -like what the hell did we talk about? Why were we ever friends in the first place? And why would I stay friends with someone when I see how petty and two-faced they are. I guess that's why things change. I'm sure this old friend is happy now where she is and with her new friends. I can tell she hasn't changed at all - still stuck in high school. But seriously how can the friends you meet in a BAR be you closest friends? Whatever.

I still do not have a teaching job and I do not care to discuss.

If I were a vampire slayer I would own up to it more than Buffy. And I wouldn't wear tight leather pants. Not cute.

"I'm stuck in a rut that I fell into by mistake"

I never update anymore but maybe I need to start getting my feelings in writing cause i'm well, stuck in a rut.

Kings Island sucked my life up this summer, as it always does. It was fun. I had a really awesome summer and I miss it. My friends and I created a family. We had a blast. But, we've been out of KI for almost 2 months now. The winter has been weird. I work a stupid pointless job at a kiosk in the mall. I feel like I am contributing nothing to the world, because i'm not. Here's the thing. All my life I wanted to teach. I went to school for four years, graduated cum laude, and here I am working a stupid retail job. I want to teach. More than anything right now, that is what I want. It's frustrating waiting for my license. I can't do anything but wait and get annoyed.

My social life has become monotonous. We do the same thing everyday and i'm getting tired of it. Friends have drifted away, one has moved away (but is thankfully coming back), one is irritating the hell out of me. If you want to be my friend, then let me be your friend. Stop closing me off and breaking plans with me. If you don't think you can hang out with me, then tell me don't tell me you can and then disappoint me when you can't (which you know will happen). Don't take advantage of me because I care about you. When I call, pick up the phone so I can talk to you about my life, I don't want to tell you everything through a text message. Don't tell me you can't hang out with us, but then have your other friends that aren't from work come over to your house. It hurts my feelings. I feel like you don't appreciate us. We are supposed to be a family. As Karrie read, "a family is a circle of friends who love you". We love you, so love us back. I don't want to drive around all night anymore. I want to hang out, talk, watch movies, be twentysomething and enjoy it. Yeah, we have fun, but there are others ways to have fun. I'm just sick and tired of getting aggrevated with you because you are so vague and distant sometimes. If you want us to understand what's going on in your life, then tell us. Don't expect us to be understanding if we don't know what the hell is wrong.

I want to teach.

I need to clean my room but can't find the motivation to do it.

At least i've read some good books lately.

So here I am back in Cincinnati...but for good this time. I don't think it's sunk in yet that I won't ever be going back to Winthrop. Like it feels awesome to have a degree, but I can't believe college is over. It's a weird feeling.

I'm crossing my fingers in hopes that I made the right decision in coming back here...not like Lewisville offered me a job, but still. Sometimes I just wonder if it was the right choice. I'm afraid things aren't going to be how I expect and i'm going to be let down.

It's crazy to think that it's already full season at work. I like my store, more than I thought I would, and i've had fun so far. I am, however, interested in how things will change once Cedar Fair takes over...will I have to wear a uniform? Cause i'm not down with that. I like wearing my own clothes thank you.

While at work today I was ringing on register since I didn't have an associate and at like 1:30 I got really tired and like, super bummed for some reason. I was in a funk for like 2 hours til Kortnie came in. I don't know why but it was really weird. Plus the guests were pissing me off cause of course nothing has a price on it so I had to deal with that. Working at KI makes me so happy I am no longer a teenager.

[mood| Mellow ]

Ok...so our internet has been really shady lately and it kept going in and out and kicking me offline and being all kinds of messed up. But, I think it's back, which is good news. I've been pretty lost without it. So I'll recap some stuff that's happened in the past few days or so.

May 6 - I graduated from college! I think I already wrote about that...but it's still very exciting. It hasn't sunk in yet but i'm getting there. It's really weird to think of myself as an actual grown-up. Sometimes I still feel like i'm a kid. It might be because i'm around kids all day, but still. It's weird to think I won't be coming back here in August. And i'm like, trying to savor every drive around Rock Hill, everyway Winthrop looks, how it feels to be down here, etc. I think my 4 years has made me half Yankee and half southern belle. I swear i'm going to go home saying "y'all". I couldn't be happier with my experience here, and I am sad to see it go. I've grown up so much and discovered so much of myself while i've been here that I can't imagine ever having staying in Ohio for school--no that there is anything wrong with it, I guess I just needed to get away. And now i'm ready to go back home. Being away made me appreciate Cincinnati and my family and friends there. I'm very anxious to get back.

This past weekend I went to Myrtle Beach with Ashleigh. I drove by myself and that was kinda boring, but it went by pretty fast I guess. On Friday night we went to dinner, walked on the beach, then drank at Cheeseburger in Paradise (first time i'd ever been there even though we have one at home in Eastgate). Saturday we got up, ate lunch, laid on the beach--we got in the water but it was freezing--and I got a little sunburned. Then we went to Broadway at the Beach where we ate dinner (at Senor Frogs and they were way expensive and the food wasn't that great) and went shopping. I bought the coolest shirt that says "Taking life with a grain of salt, swimming in a sea of margaritas". :) I love it. Then we hit the bars. We started at Margaritaville which was cool cause they had live music and adarondack chairs to sit in. The guy played some pretty good music I heard Sweet Caroline twice that weekend! By the time we left there we were feeling pretty good and we went to Broadway Louies. There we had some fun. We got hit on by these 2 guys who wouldn't leave us alone. We met another guy when we got outside and he bought us beer but then the place was closing...I know I texted a lot of people and even called one. Ha, it was a fun night. Sunday I came back here.

Monday was my 22nd birthday! I didn't do anything since the weekend was my birthday celebration. I went to the library and Wal-mart...fun times. My dad asked me if I felt old and I told him no, but he told me that he felt old because i'm 22 now. And in a way, I do feel kind of old. When my mom was 22 she had me. I think there is going to be a celebration for my birthday and graduation when I get home, i'm very much looking forward to that.

Yesterday I was so exhausted cause I was up til like 1 on Monday night on the phone with Sarah Brown so when I got home from school I slept from 4:30 - 8:15. I couldn't fall asleep til after 11 last night but I felt rested when I woke up this morning, which was nice. I only have 3 and a half more days of school--i'm so ready to be done. I love teaching, but substituting is kinda hard. And I mean, it's the same class but it's the end of the year so they are as ready to be done as I am. I just do what I can to keep them semi-calmed down and get to 3:00 everyday. I have so much end of the year checklists and stuff to do that I'm not looking forward to.

This weekend i'm going home so I can work since it's been 2 weeks since i've been in my store. Hopefully i'll get to hang out with some people too. Then next Wednesday I drive back home! I'm excited but that means I have to find a real job, clean my room, and live with my parents again. But I love summer and i'm looking forward to going to Red's games and hanging out with my friends a lot.

I watched the Grey's Anatomy finale and balled, it was so sad. I love that show.

I get a new cell phone on June 5, i'm going to see The Fray at Bogarts on June 7 with Sam and Ashley, and July 15 I get to see Wicked in Chicago!!! yay!!

Ohhh I went shopping today and got a skirt for $7.50 at Target. I talked myself out of buying shoes on sale cause I don't think i'd ever really wear them, they were a size too big, and they kinda hurt my feet. But, they were really hot. I bought a jean skirt and a shrug (I think?) at Old Navy--talked myself out of buying more stuff there too. And now i'm just sitting here listening to my iTunes and waiting for good tv to come on.

I want to teach. I want to go back home and move out of my house. I want to get married sometime in the distant future. I want love. Real love that doesn’t keep me guessing or fooling myself. I want to have kids. I want to live at the beach. I want to get my masters. I want to get a business management degree. I want to keep working in retail. I want to have a great summer full of fun and good people. I want to stop worrying so much about things I can’t control. I want to be able to let things go and realize some things are for the best. I want to fully understand that everything happens for a reason, not just say I believe it. I want to go back to New York. I want to go to California. I want to go to Europe. But most of all, I want to be fully, undeniably happy with my life and the decisions I make.

So here I sit at school during planning time. It's one of the best parts of the day cause i'm finally by myself after being with children since 7:30. They can be awfully annoying, but they are so precious too. And my little second grader from my internship gave me a hug at lunch. I miss her so much. If it were up to me i'd take her home and raise her cause I know her home life isn't great. It's really hard to connect with a lot of the students at this school. Many of them come from backgrounds where they've experienced more drugs, alcohol, violence, etc. than i've seen in my 22 years. I just don't know how to relate to a student whose mother overdosed on drugs and was in ICU. Obviously there are issues if his mother OD'd. It's just really hard to fully grasp the backgrounds of these kids. So many of them come from 1 parent homes or their parents are divorced and i've never had to deal with that in my life. It's eye-opening to see what kind of childhood some kids go through.

On a much brighter note, i'm leaving to go to the beach after school!! Yay!! It'll be nice to relax, have fun, and not worry about anything. Then only 6 1/2 more days of school for the kids and our last day on the 24th then I go back home!!

I haven't been feeling very well lately. My stomach has been hurting really bad. Then today I woke up and I felt really light-headed. Last night I was freezing and shivering so I turned the heat on. Then I woke up in the middle of the night sweating, so I turned the air back on. I just want to be healthy again!! I didn't get a lot of sleep since I felt sick last night and i'm really tired. It's going to be a fun 3 hour drive to the beach by myself!

I just got access to my grades for this past semester...and I totally got a 4.0! I guess that's how I graduated cum laude, but still. My cumulative ended up being a 3.514 or something but i'm very happy with the way things finished. Now if I could only get these darn 4th graders to listen to me and be quiet for 5 minutes...life would be a little easier.

I went to bed at 9 last night because I was so exhausted. That made me feel old.

I AM A COLLEGE GRADUATE!!!!!

This morning I graduated from Winthrop University! It's been a long 4 years that flew by really fast. I can't believe i'm going to be leaving Winthrop forever...it's really bittersweet. I've had a lot of good times here. I know now that i've actually graduated that I made the right decision in coming here. It's changed me as a person and i've grown so much. I'm very pleased with my college education. Oh! and I graduated cum laude (3.5 - 3.74 GPA) but I didn't know I was going to, so that was exciting to find out this morning. It's really hard to believe college is over. I'm nervous about finding a real job. I'm like an actual adult with a fancy degree to prove that I know something! I'll be here til the 24th substituting in 4th grade still....and i'm here in my apartment by myself but i'm going to the beach next weekend with Ashleigh to celebrate my birthday! Oh life, how fast you go by.

It's really quite an odd feeling that i'm going to be graduating on Saturday. Like I was driving back from McDonalds today and I was just glancing at the campus and it's a surreal feeling to know that I won't be here after Saturday. I mean, i've spent the last four years of my life at this school making friends, building relationships, working towards the goal of becoming a teacher. And i've done it. I AM a teacher. I know that i'm ready to go home and be home all the time because home just means more to me than Rock Hill does. But at the same time I know i'm going to miss being here and my friends, going to Pineville, the weather, the south, everything. I know i'm NOT going to miss going to class and stuff but it doesn't feel like college should be over already. When I think about it, it's been 8 years since I was a freshman in high school. 8 years. That's as long as my 2nd graders have been alive! My students always look at me for answers to everything and to protect them, obviously since i'm an adult, but it's weird to me. In my mind i'm still a kid. Sure, i'm almost 22 years old but I don't live on my own totally, I don't pay tons of bills, and I still love to sleep in until like noon. While I feel like a kid, I also do feel like an adult sometimes. It's an odd stage of life. This is such a huge milestone for me. I mean, i'm the first person in my immediate family to graduate from college. Not like I ever doubted that I would, but it's amazing to know I actually did it. It's like another chapter of my life is over. So weird.

On a different note, i'm glad to be teaching 4th grade right now but i'm so incredibly ready to be home for the summer. And my birthday is in less than 2 weeks!

[mood| Excited ]

It may not seem like much but I got a full-time substitute position at my school so i'll be in 4th grade from the end of my internship (April 21) til the last day of school (May 23)!! I think it's a great way to get my foot in the door and it'll be a wonderful experience for me. I'll be staying with my mentor teacher since I have to be outta the Courtyard after graduation...thank goodness she's letting me stay with her! Plus i'll finally be getting PAID to teach!! FINALLY!! I know it won't be easy, but hey, it's something.

I had my final evaluation today and it went very well...I did rather well i'd say. My unit work sample (the big assignment we turn in as interns) is great, apparently I did a very good job on it. I'm very proud of myself, I have to admit. I feel like my career is starting out on the right track and i've done so well for myself. I know that i'm definitely in the right profession, and that's a great feeling.

[mood| Sore ]

Well, the technology conference was definitely not what I expected. I was highly awkward being with 2 teachers, a curriculum instructor, and the principal. Thank goodness the other intern was there too or it would've been REALLY awkward. There ended up only being one person who came to our session because it was sponsored by Texas Instruments and so it was mainly for middle school and up teachers. I was expecting this huge like, convention or something. But I got a free tote bag and it will look good on my resume. After we got back yesterday at like 4 I decided to work out...and now my muscles hurt from the pilates. I've suddenly become motivated to work out and eat better--perhaps it's the warm weather. Speaking of the warm weather, Ashleigh and I went to the Winthrop baseball game today and we were there for like, 2 hours and i'm sooo sunburnt and it hurts now. My arms, chest, legs, and even my scalp are burnt. My nose is red so I look like Rudolph. I'm hoping it turns to tan!

1 more week til Spring Break...only 9 more days of my internship left! Hard to believe, but very exciting. My mentor teacher is trying to convince me to stay with her cause i'm pretty much her brain, ha. She's been so wonderful and i'm going to miss my little kids. But, that means i'm THAT much closer to graduating and eventually getting my OWN classroom!!

I applied for the Greater Cincinnati schools today through ohioteachingjobs.org. Hopefully i'll get SOMETHING back from one of them. I don't even care what school it is, I just need a job!

[mood| Sleepy ]

I finished my analysis of student learning...the part of my unit where I see if the kids really learned anything from my teaching. It took me about 2 hours, which pretty much sucked but at least it's out of the way. I'm going to work on revising my unit as a whole next week since it's due on the 7th. Then i'm going home for Spring break! Wooohoo! I hope the flight on Friday stays open...I don't want to have to deal with no open flights again and blah blah since we have area training day on Saturday.

I'm really going to miss my kids when i'm done teaching in 2 weeks (can't believe it!). I've gotten attached to the little pains in the butt. I can't imagine what it will be like when I have my own classroom and i'm with kids for a whole school year. I've decided that I definitely like 2nd grade. I might even like it more than 4th cause the content is easier. Ha. Plus in 4th grade kids start to get their sassy attitudes.

I've received an answer to the person not talking to me situation. I don't think it makes it any better on this end, but I am glad that I have a reason now. Ehh..such is life I suppose. I feel there was just a lot of miscommunication and it turned into assumptions and other things. But, that happens and I can't change anything now. I do have to say, with the time off from talking I'm getting a lot more school stuff finished.

I go to Wilmington tomorrow for the technology conference. And who knew Wilmington was on the beach?! That's kind of exciting maybe i'll get to go! I mean we're getting there at like 2 and we don't have to register until like 6...yeah beach time would be nice.

I'm REALLY tired and I think that's hindering an exciting update. Not that anything truly exciting has happened lately, but still. I need some sleep.

[mood| Lazy ]

I have senioritis like woah. I'm dumb and decided that I want to use a different lesson in my unit because the other one was just not working for me. So now I have to look at my pre-assessment again and re-score them according to my new learning goal...grrr. The whole unit is due next Friday but I also have a lot of other shit to do before Spring Break. I really just want to graduate right now. They should trust that I can teach, I mean my mentor teacher says i'm doing wonderful so they should just believe that. Ha. I just have to make an 80 on it so I pass and I can graduate. I've never made below a 90 on any form of lesson plan i've had to turn in so I should be okay. It's just the fact that I don't have any motivation to do ANYTHING right now. All I want to do is apply for a job. Which is good, but that shouldn't be my focus til after my unit is done. Oh, and I want to sleep for days.

At least the weather is finally warm.

[mood| Bored ]

Even though no one is commenting, i'm still gonna update cause it makes me feel better. Today, my lamp broke. and that makes me sad because I HATE the overhead light in my room. I don't have the funds to purchase a new one, so i'll have to suck it up. But it like, exploded in my face--okay that's an exaggeration, but it sparked and blew the fuse. So that kinda sucked.

My weekend was pretty mellow. Friday I went to Pineville with Ashleigh and I didn't buy anything, goooo me. Since, you know, I piss away money I tried really hard not to do that. Then we went to Ruby Tuesday and came back here. I went to bed at 10:30 cause I was tired and i'm lame, and I slept til 12 on Saturday and it was wonderful. Yesterday I went to Wal-mart where it was PACKED and I hated it. I cleaned some stuff here, worked on my music presentation, played nintendo with Tiffany, then went to Target with her. We ended up at the Target in Pineville and i'm glad they didn't have the shoes I liked in my size cause I should NOT buy them. Even though I wanted them. Really badly. We went back to wal-mart to get alcohol and we didn't even drink. ha, that's cool though. Today I sat around, took the coldest shower EVER and worked on my music stuff some more. Went to Wal-mart again to go grocery shopping and talked to my wonderful friends from home on the phone.

Only 2 more weeks til spring break! This is my last week of full-time teaching...and only 41 days til graduation. Pretty exciting. Next weekend i'm going to a technology conference in Wilmington, NC at UNC and i'm kinda nervous but I think it'll be a good experience. Plus my mentor teacher is the best, so it shouldn't be too bad.

Grey's Anatomy is a repeat tonight but I might watch it anyway...cause I love it. *points to new icon*